Can you imagine the incredible strength it takes for someone who is broken to the core of their being to simply decide to rewrite their story; to re-invent their life the way our creator always meant for it to be.  To have the courage to know that this is exactly what you were supposed to do, after you’ve walk through the fires of hell, you are forged like the finest steel, it does take every ounce of that steel for you to pick up the pen and begin writing a new page on a blank sheet.

Forgiveness is the key and you are the key holder!   Have you ever paid attention to how many times during the day we live in condemnation or judgment of our bodies and our spirits?  Judgment comes in forms of disliking certain aspects of our personality and trying to shut them out; it comes in shutting out our past choices, it comes when we fixate on all the people who have offended us, judged us, broken us.  Do you have a “list” of people that have harmed you, past judgment on you, offended you in some way? Do you realize how many people are on that list?   Are there places you can’t go because you got hurt, offended, put off?  Have you gone to church and felt offended by something the pastor or church member said?  Once we start keeping tally of how much we don’t like ourselves or of all the people that have condemned us, hurt us, offended us, that is when the barricades and road blocks start getting built in our minds, our souls, our bodies.    Then every time something happens that we take personally; that barricade gets taller and stronger.   Road blocks/barriers/walls are meant to keep people out or to keep people in; it depends on what side you are looking from.

The walls that I constructed over years to survive was a great way of keeping me in, protecting my soul and my mind.  What served to protect me eventually became my greatest threat.  I was so disconnected from my emotions, so far removed from my soul and my spirit that I didn’t know how to feel anything.  Things like love, joy, happiness, pain, hurt, empathy, I felt nothing in the end.  I was a body walking around pretending to be animated and alive.

Brick walls, barricades, roadblocks whatever you call yours keeps the life giving water of the spirit and the universe out.  It cannot flow through you to offer you healing, to wash away hurt, death, or to ignite creativity, to give you peace and love.

Forgiveness is the key to healing, it is the key to your success, it is the key to a new life, forgiveness is the key to a life beyond your imagination.  Forgiveness must be bone deep, it must be done completely, freely and sometimes it happens in stages.  Forgive you must, not for the other person but for YOU!  The alternative to Forgiveness is bitterness, and bitterness makes us hold onto the pain, the agony, the hatred and it will eat you alive.  It may take it years but it will show up in your body in the form of sickness and death, it will show up in your soul.  Your soul without the life given to it by the spirit will die slowly each day and the weapon is bitterness and hatred.  There is LIFE in Forgiveness!

Release in the form of forgiveness begins when we unpack each hurt, each offense examines it through the seat of the soul and through the eyes of the heart.  Once we start this process then we start to understand that love will allow us to forgive because to have healing forgiveness is the only option!  To move forward and write your page for abundance, happiness, contentment, joy, peace and LOVE, mercy, you must offer forgiveness to YOURSELF first.  Most of the time it is easier to forgive anyone else before we forgive yourself.

On my own journey I had to unravel a broken child, a broken teen, a broken wife and mother.   I had to pull down the bricks one by one to release the agony.  I had to literally pull out with by bare hands the ugly vines that had twisted my mind, but protected my heart and my soul.  I had to find the thread that would unravel all of it for me.  It took months to slowly look at my life experiences from the perceptive of an observer.  I had to look at the parts I played in each area of my life.  I dissected every part of myself to find the thread that I needed to unravel; that thread was Forgiveness for myself!  I had to purge and let go of the hatred I had for myself.  I had to let go of the pain I had carried and the old belief system that I was unworthy.

Today I find myself forgiving freely and without restraint. I have learned through this process to forgive and let go of all the things that my mind said was DONE to me; my birthmother, and father for not being my protector, parent and for hurting their own children, my cousins, who participated in abusing a child, my foster parents, for not wanting me enough, my adopted parents, for taking me away from my foster parents, my siblings because they needed me, my friends because at some point I needed them and they weren’t there for me.

I had to learn to forgive my ex-husband for not understanding that words can kill just as sure as any weapon!   I had to learn to forgive my mind because it believed in a story that wasn’t for me and through LEARNING to FORGIVE, I began to understand that I was created for something so much more.  Through this journey to Forgiveness GOD has helped me understand that my experiences can help others heal. I understand that I was created to help others find their way.  I was created for his pure joy and I was created to learn about my own soul.   My experiences in this life have been the frame in which I have done that.   I had to learn that my soul was and is always in connection with God.

So my question for you to consider today is…. Do you want a life free from the hurt? Do you want to have happiness and joy? How committed are you to creating the life you want?

Are you willing to put in the work?   Are willing to unpack and unlock the past and your present? Are you ready to face yourself truthfully, honestly and with compassion? If so, you can have a balanced, happy and forgiven life!  Forgiveness for yourself and then others is the key to it all!  Abundance, Love, Compassion, Mercy, Joy, Peace!  

Forgiveness Is the key to your future and you are the key holder! 

Luke 6:37

“Judge not, and you shall not be judged. Condemn not, and you shall not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven.”