Death of the body makes me question my life.  Makes me wonder if I am truly living in my purpose, working towards my dreams, am I truly being present in the moment with the ones I love.  Have I touched enough lives for me to be ready to move onto heaven because, in my soul I know that heaven is so much better than this earth we live on?  It makes me wonder when will that day be for me.   Will it be the day that I can say without a shadow of a doubt I am ready to walk in the light forever, because I am ready.

As a child I saw people, maybe it was the over active imagination of a child, but I can tell you it was very real for me.  They would wake me up and I was terrified because I didn’t know who they were.  I later found out they had all passed into the spirit world.   As a child I also had an experience where I saw Jesus at the foot of my bed and he said come to me, Marie.  As soon as my foot touched the ground the entire bed came crashing down to the ground.  My friend Angela was present for this so she knows all about this story.

I was asked about this experience and I said that I didn’t see anything.  For this I have asked forgiveness from God and myself.   It is one of the many things I have a difficult time letting go of.  In looking back, I realized that everything I have ever needed was given to me without even asking, in spite of my denying seeing him.   That is how much the father loves the child.  

He protected my soul, my mind from years of childhood abuse. He plucked me out of that situation and placed me with one of the strongest women I have ever known.  She was the vessel GOD used to save a broken and battered child.  She showed me love, she showed me what it was to be independent and not care what others thought, she showed me how to care for those I loved, she showed me mercy, and the power of a healing touch, she showed me what it was like to be a mother.  I don’t think she was ever afraid of anything and I will miss her beyond words every day of this life.

I know God’s hand was in our adoption.  As a family of 5 with needs beyond what our foster families could handle he found another family that would and could take on that responsibility.  They have never wavered in their love for us, even in times of extreme struggle.  We have been extremely blessed to know that kind of love.  Love that is unselfish, unwavering, unconditional.   There was no difference between the adopted children and the blood children.  To this day with 28 grandchildren they don’t treat any of them any differently.  We are a family and it doesn’t matter if it’s by blood, by tears or by adoption.

I know that God’s plan for my life has been about fulfilling my journey since the beginning and it will continue to be about my journey until the end.  How much closer can I get to him? How much stronger can I hear him?  How much more can I trust him? How much more can I believe? How much more can I learn? How many more barriers and old beliefs can I destroy to get to my Father?  Where I can hold his hand, wrap myself in his arms, and finally be made whole and filled with overflowing love.

Every day I am closer to his spirit.  I feel his power moving within my soul, I feel connected to him today more than I have in my entire life, I know we are on a journey together; he is my compass, my key, my path and he is my destiny.

So, I ask you to look at your life today, in the rear view!  What do you see, are you walking towards the light? Are you sharing God’s love with yourself and those around you? Are you showing his compassion and his mercy? Are you living? Are you present in your life?

If not, what are your choices right now going to be to take the first step onto his path?  After all, he is our destiny, he is our path, he is our key, he is our compass, but we have to make the first step to move towards him! It is one step or one word either way he will coming running and he will move every one of your mountains to get to YOU!

The journey from the beginning to the end of this life is all about the people we love along the way and the GOD we hold steadfast in.   Day 84 to Transformation!