On a hike recently God and I had a conversation about Love and his NEED for me to have absolute faith in him.   I am a person who needs time in nature, who needs time in the magical hours of the day to refresh and rebalance my spirit.  Hiking, running and music are my pathways to God’s voice, his voice which has been speaking so loudly to me lately is that complete faith is what is required of me.

Love is that miracle that grabs you by the heart when your soul meets the person who brings joy to your day from a simple hello, who brings you peace, who your heart sighs over when they walk in your space.  The person who you give thanks to God for every day that he breathed life into this person.   I have never experienced that kind of love, the love that transcends time and place, a love that calls body to body and soul to soul until recently.   We were created to love but that brings FEAR to the forefront for me.  To fully and freely LOVE another soul without regard for anything in return puts you in a very vulnerable place.  It opens us up to hurt, pain and anguish but it also opens us up to extreme amounts of joy, happiness, wonder and amazement.

It’s been a year and I believe that 5 minutes experiencing this kind of love for another is better than not having it at all and because this person walked into my life I am forever changed.   My soul longs for the rest of our lives and beyond.  As I was in a beautiful place this weekend where the sunset is beyond words and the fields go on for miles, where a tragedy has brought forth the awareness that when you love someone they need to know it because we have only a certain number of days, hours and minutes that we are given.  Those days, hours and minutes are programmed into our DNA and are precious and even though I am without a doubt ready for my spirit to live on, I don’t want to have the regrets of someone I love not knowing it.

As I was hiking and meditating on nature, God and how amazing he is for filling me up with Peace, Joy, Happiness and Love.  I had to consider where the hesitation comes from, what stops me from saying the words.   It all comes down to the word that has taken my breath away more times than I can count, that has stopped me from fulfilling my purpose more times than I can count and it came into my awareness more times that I can count last year “FEAR“.   Once our days are over we stand for judgment.  Have you ever considered maybe it is not judgment at all but a recap of the roads and the paths we took and the ones that were available to us.  I am certain I will see clearly the road that leads to God and I’m also very certain that all roads lead to God!

FEAR is the chain that holds us to the ground, that keeps us small and hidden, that holds us back from our destiny, our lives, and it keeps us disconnected from God.  Fear is such a strong emotion, it has its purpose at times; it can save us from danger, it can save us from ourselves.

However, I know that my God has called me to have complete faith in his love, complete faith that he is holding of my hand, complete faith that no matter what happens on this earth that he is the one that will be holding me, guiding me and protecting me.  He is the one who knows my spirit completely, he is the one who knows where my heart is.

We get to experience this life once; we only get to love like this once; if we let our hearts be open and willing to take that fall.  So walk through the fire, walk through the fear and know that God has the plan, he knows the beginning and the end and he will carry us when it’s a difficult road.  So as I walk out onto the water I say to God; I am your vessel you are the words, I am your sword and you are the shield, I am your body and you are my soul.  I believe in the power of your promise, I believe in the power that I have to create the life I want, I believe in the power of LOVE.

As I listen to a song, where the words are so true, in everything we need to call on God.  In the times of our heartaches, in the time of our trials, in the times of our greatest joy and in the times when the storm is raging and you can’t see the light, we need to call on him.  Our spirits need us to call on God who lives in us, all we have to say is his name and he shows up in miraculous ways.

Have you ever felt so out of touch with life, the people around you, your family, your children, that is what distance and time does to everyone.  It can be difficult to stay connected when the people you love are not close by.  It takes work, it takes dedication and pure love for the other person.  It’s phone calls, texts, visits, it just saying I’m thinking of you randomly.  If you think of that person a picture of them comes to mind.  It’s the same with God a picture of how you think about him comes to mind when you think of him. Being connected and in the spirit is a process of bringing him into to your thoughts, your mind and letting him live in your heart every second, every day!

So it’s through the fall that I get closer to God, it is through the fall that I am reminded how precious our life is, it is through the fall that I know that this journey is a work in progress, it is through the fall that I am learning to trust completely and to walk through the fear.  

Day 82 to Transformation! 

It’s not the future that you’re afraid of… it’s repeating the past that makes you so fearful!