I am amazed daily of how much I didn’t understand until now and how much I still do not understand.  However, it is like God has switched the station and I am tuned to His frequency.   I have heard the story of the crossing of the Jordan many times but never has it meant so much to me personally until recently.  I feel much like the Israelites; I too have lived many years wandering the desert.  I remember very clearly years ago asking God to please bring me out of the desert and like the Israelites He delivered me.  He brought me to Tennessee where He allowed me to heal, where He has shown me so quickly His power, His strength, His will, His Joy, His Peace, His mercy, His Grace.  Like the many times in the bible where He touched someone and miracles happened I feel very much like that in my own life.  He touched the blind and they could see, the lame could walk and the deaf could hear.  I can see, I can walk and I can hear.

He took me out of my desert and gave me a love for Him like I have never had.  He didn’t condemn or destroy me for all the times I had turned away, for all the times I didn’t see, for all the times I couldn’t hear.  I had locked myself up so securely that I couldn’t see past the walls.  I threw away the key so I couldn’t get myself out and I wasn’t sure I could walk out much less crawl.  However, by mercy I took one small step, I took one breath and He managed to grab my hand because I moved.  It is by Grace and His mercy on a beaten and torn soul that I am healed not only healed but restored to newness.  He took the old beaten up, worn out, twisted, scared child and woman and breathed new life into her.

God knows I don’t deserve any of the grace and mercy but I am so grateful for it.  I would not be the person I am right now if He hadn’t blown away every single thing to make a way for Him.  I died and He brought me back to life.  So as I take a huge leap of faith this week I have to ask myself.  What is my Jordan? Why am I waiting to cross? How long am I going to keep wandering the desert because of fear, anxiety, depression, anger, uncertainty, in security, doubt?

God wants us to take the first step into the river! Are you ready? Can you hear Him calling you?  Do you feel him reaching for you?

‘When you reach the banks of the Jordan River, take a few steps into the river and stop there.’” Joshua 3:8 

I’m asking you what is your Jordan? What is the step you want to take to make a change in your life, in your current situation, in your spiritual walk, in your physical health, in your mental wellbeing?  What is your river?  What is stopping you?

We all have one, two, three or more; did you know that when we take the first step we are confirming our faith in our Father and He will do all the rest?  In other words, when you take the first step you are taking the step right into your miracle.  You get to choose; you get to decide you have the power.  We need to move for Him to move.

I asked myself this question today what is my Jordan? What step am I not taking to get to my Father and my purpose.  My Jordan’s are many and my rivers are deep.  They have been a lifetime in the making and they are my weakness and my strengths. it is the fear of not living a life that God is creating for me, it’s not fulfilling my purpose, it is the fear of not being able to provide for my family, it is the fear of not helping others find their way, it is not trusting, it is doubt.

I am thankful that for today I have the strength, the believe and the faith to know that tomorrow I am taking the first step and that He will make the way and provide all that I need and more.

I have always been a writer.   I have used writing as an outlet for pain, childhood trauma, heartache, depression.  It has brought me tremendous amounts of relief and I pray as this journey continues that someone will find peace, strength and comfort in my written words.  If nothing else to know that you are not alone in your darkness; that there is calm in the storm and that all you have to do is reach for the invisible hand in the darkness and your safety net shows up.

I see the beauty of the written word, I feel the love of ever letter, every comma, every period and the quietness in between the words.  I feel the love that ebbs and flows through the written word.  Words has always meant more to me than anything said.

When I read something it brings a picture to mind very quickly.  It is very much like a song that you can’t stop listening too.  Music can bring you joy, it can bring you to tears, it can run along you skin and give you chills.  Words are magical and I know that is why God chose His Word to be everlasting, never-failing and forever more!  He says His Word will never cease to exist.   There is power in the written word!

“Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will never pass away” Mathew 24:35

So, I ask you what is your Jordan?  Are you ready to take the first step to get to your destiny?  I know without a doubt that if you do take the first step God will have you all the way, when we step into the river in faith He makes the way where there is no way.   His Word which is never-failing, never-changing, never-ending says so!  It is empowering to know without a doubt, without a fear, without a second thought that you and I have a promise that can’t be broken as we believe in faith all of His promises for the first step into the Jordan!

Day 77 to Transformation

“The priests who carried the ark of the covenant of the LORD stopped in the middle of the Jordan and stood on dry ground, while all Israel passed by until the whole nation had completed the crossing on dry ground.”  Joshua 3:17