It’s been a couple of weeks and I have been struggling with some things in my spirit and it wasn’t until today when a random text from a friend came that I just opened up and told her what was going on.

When you are going through a battle in your spirit you feel off, you feel like a barrier has been in place, you feel like you just can’t quiet reach the Father. If you are like me and have experienced what it truly feels like to be in his presence, the joy your feel, the peace, the warmth and the love that just over flows I never want to not have that. I never want to ever feel like I can’t hear him however, the last couple of weeks I have not been able to hear no matter what song I sing through, no matter what verse I read, no matter what service I attended. I was like walking through the motions and nothing was going out or coming in. I will tell you that today was a breaking point, I woke up still not being able to feel him, I look at my bible and looked at it.. opened faced thumbing through the pages hoping to land on something that would say Here I am! Here is what you need to read, Here I am Lord. I wanted to be able to answer him and say Here I am Lord? No call no answer just static quiet.

The doubt, the fear of why can’t I hear you, but for me more importantly is why can’t I feel your presence. The touch of your hand on my shoulder or my head saying I’ve got you. The touch of your hand brushing against mine that says I’m holding you.. Everything in this life is going to be OK. I have felt so alone and truthfully scared. Logically I know that I needed to pray, pray harder, I needed to worship and worship harder, I needed to read and read more. So many times over the course of the last couple of weeks I’ve talked about trust and learning to trust him with every single thing in my life down to the very breath I breath.

So, as I’ve learned to trust I also knew that something was in the way of our talks. Last Sunday during my run I asked Him What more can I give you Lord. I emptied my entire heart out, We’ve released the chains of the past, We’ve broken generational curses, We’ve walked through the fires of hell together and you’ve released me from a bondage that should have killed me. You’ve given me a new life, You’ve given me a new faith, stronger and more abundantly that what I had before, You’ve washed me clean of sins I wasn’t supposed to carry, You’ve forged my faith and love into a new steel.

So, after I said what more is there? What is left inside of me that would ever stop me from being in your presence, What would ever stop me from knowing you, what would ever stop me from believing in you? Tell me Father, What more is left of me to give.

Today, He answered me through the text of a friend, who stopped and prayed me through what I have been feeling. He actually gave her the word and I immediately knew that Yes that was exactly what I had been battling in my spirit. So as I write this know that I’m staying true to my healing, my journey and my purpose and that is to help others along the way to find the pure overflowing Love of the Our Father. There is no better place to be. There is peace from the chaos of life and the evil of the world, There is pure joy and pure Love.

If you are going through a spiritual battle, where everything looks ok from the outside and in the physical world but the battle ground is blooded in the spirit world. When you can’t hear his voice, when you have no words, when you are struggling to breath and you know all you can do is hold on for tomorrow. Call or text someone or pray for the Father to send someone into your world now that you can trust to pray you through. Be open, be honest and don’t let fear stand in your way. If I had not trusted and she had not been led to send me a text today I may not have known a spiritual break through like today. Once I said the pray we prayed together I felt the spirit leave me. I felt the Lords presence come rushing in and I heard his voice when we ran.

He is an amazing and loving God. I think about my question of what is left for me to give. Well, the answer is all and I pray Father that you will take every ounce of my heart and soul. I give them to you freely and willingly. Please Father pluck out every deeply rooted, ugly, unhealthy part of me and burn it in your fire. Bind every spirit of rejection, fear and doubt. You hold the key to my eternity, you hold the keys to my future and you only hold the keys to my present. I pray that nothing in this physical world or the spiritual world can stand against you and me. I am protected by you, I was called by you and my name was written in Jesus’ Blood. I am your heir and I am your vessel. So all things that think they can stand against us will never be able to take hold, because they can’t reach me in Jesus name. The truth is you’ve already conquered and won. The world and the enemy just haven’t realized that you’ve already cut off their heads…. You the creator of the world is the one who created me in your image!!!

The spirit of rejection and offense stand no ground in this body or this mind. This spirit that has been a part of me since birth is and will no longer be a part of me. I speak and I claim like JOSHUA the victory of the Lord. He who defeats all of our enemies. I claim that power, the power that told Joshua I’ve already delivered them unto you. I claim the power of Abraham that said Here I am Lord, I Claim the power of the apostles to raise the dead and to heal the sick. I claim the power of the Holy Spirit to fill me up until my entire body is overflowing with prophesy and healing. I claim the Love of the LORD for me…. in Jesus name… Thank you God !!!!